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So My best friend became my girlfriend, then we 'got some space' and now she's telling me everything she does with her new girlfriend. I she means so much to me, and she's my best friend and one of the only people I have. She's all I have and I feel so lonely, but she doesn't seem to get that I'm jealous and hurting. I know I have no room to be jealous since she's not mine anymore, but I just hurt so much inside. I feel empty and I can't stop crying. I mean if you stay friends with someone you date, why would you tell them everything you do with your stupid girlfriend!? Now I'm crying again. Goodie. It hurts so much. It feels like I'm empty and cold inside, but only in my stomach and it feels like the rest of me is on fire. Every time I like/date somebody they pull away from me. It hurts. I'm losing my best friend and I have no one else. I'm so tired of losing people. I don't know how exactly to put it into words, but it's tearing me up inside. I just wish I could just STOP FEELING.
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Golly gosh I was gone for a long while. Seems I've missed a lot.
Eventually I'll catch up I suppose :3 Just a small message that I have returned for the time being and intend to stick around and be more frequent even over the summer while I have a less adequate computer.
So hello again all
Ask admin? ouo
Well darlings, I've grown weary of my previous journal.
And figured I'd toss out the ask admin option again :3
Now that you pups all know what I look like, which I apologize for XD
But yes I have been bored senseless and really lonesome-like and sad. So any questions would be greatly appreciated and welcome. So pleeeeease? Ask me something. Anything. And I will happily respond.
Apologies
I'm sorry I've been gone so long! I've been really busy and overwhelmed with school, also my dog died. I feel like everything I've walked on eggshells and planned and fought for for years is toppling around me! It's really distressing, and I think it's gonna get worse to boot. But We won't leave without informing you all first
Amg why must I be SO unreliable!?
Ok. So I can't remember anything, like honestly I can't remember what I did yesterday. So I've been working on dares, but school has really just been overwhelming me Already failing all my classes And also I've been trying to catch up with Homestuck and my reading list. Also my parents are about to get divorced, and since my mother's damn incompetent I know I'll have to be the one to step up and support our 'family' of 5 [excluding father] So I'll have to hurry my bitch-ass self up and get a license and a job. Also have to sell shit. Amg I have to shut up. But I WILL get this stuff done if it kills me! Working on the dare from :ic
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((I'm sorry you gotta deal with all that. : ( Yeah relationships to me were a pain in the ass for a good while, so I just let the whole thing go and I'm pretty happy with it. I hope you feel better! Hope you meet someone who can really respect you and themselves. Tough finding both at certain ages.))